Changing my life requires making daily changes. I know from the past – when I first discovered the key and put it to use – that what I eat is not as important as how and when I eat.

I struggle with being selfish and having a relationship with my food that no other person can experience or interrupt. Unless that is your hook, obsession or addiction, you may not understand what I am talking about. Me and food have been meeting up alone for so long that it is not easy to give that up.

But I want to change and the first step to making that change is releasing food and no longer choosing to be in relationship with it.

Overcoming a Relationship to Food

Breakfast – way, way, way late start. I kept telling the boys that we were not going to eat breakfast because it was almost time for lunch. But they are growing boys and we did have breakfast. I made the choice to do something SUPER light so that lunch would not sneak up on me.

Lunch – the late start left everything a little chaotic. It would have been easy to “eat alone.” I sat down at the dining room table with the youngest boy instead. I thought I would end the meal with a cookie, because sweets are important to a meal, right? I had to do a couple of chores before I could make it to the desserts and I was no longer hungry at that point. I guess if I choose to do what I know to do then I will be in a position to eat the way I know to eat.

Dinner – this is an on-the-go kind of day. That means eating dinner in the car driving to and from different activities. We still have a home cooked meal, but it is a portable one. Tonight was a mish mash – egg rolls, tacos and dinosaur pasta. Each person choose their own but we were all happy to share.

The more I work to change my behaviors and attitudes with regards to food, the more changes I see are necessary. Any addiction can be conquered – it just takes one step at a time.

Or was I?

There are times when I have hidden food when someone walked in unexpectedly.

There have been times when I have planned what I would eat as soon as I was alone.

There have been times when I have splurged and snacked all day and sat down to a meal like nothing was going on.

There have been times when I would “exercise” knowing that I was eating ever time someone turned their eyes away.

There have been times when I would eat an entire fast food meal in the car on the way to the house.

Food has become my addiction – or it was my addiction. The launch of this website was my break away from food. But recognizing that the habits and traits of other addicts were some of the habits and traits that I had formed in my own life will be just as useful in my transformation.

Recognizing the problem is a major step towards overcoming and I am determined to overcome. My weight is my issue – no one has forced fed me the weight. Pregnancy did not force the weight on me. Knowing that I did it to myself and admitting that I did it already gives me a taste of the freedom that I am working towards.

Are you ready to be free?