The morning brought the typical chaos that ushers in most Sundays Getting ready went better than I had expected despite the rushed atmosphere – up until the moment I turned and caught a glimpse of my rear end in the mirror.
My first through was amazement that something so big could fit into such a small mirror. My next thought involved disgust with a dash of anger.
“THAT IS IT.” I told myself with some force. It was time to get real and to get real often requires that I choose to drop my barriers and carry on naked. I have to be willing to shine a light in my darkest corners if I am going to clean up my life and live the way I know that I should.
I have made my share of excuses, given plenty of valid reasons, and even come up with some brilliant explanations over the last sixteen or seventeen years to explain my situations. Everything from pregnancy to tornadoes became my prop for letting the Temple of God waste away – or in my case blow up until it was no longer an asset to the kingdom.
Nothing changes until something changes, and today I am calling myself out – and asking you to support and encourage me through this exposure.
Confessions of a Pharisee
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1. I confess that I have chosen excuses over actions.
2. I confess that I have known the key but chosen the chains.
3. I confess that I have chosen the things of this world over the blessing of the Lord.
4. I confess that my physical wants have taken precedence over my spiritual needs.
5. I confess that I have chosen to hide in my sins instead of living as the example that I know that I should be.
6. I confess that I may have been consistent in my choices for a season, but I have not been consistent in that consistency.
My choices have failed me in my desire to live a healthy life and to be a Temple that makes my Father say, “Well done.” I have failed you in being a leader and encourager by not walking the walk and just spewing words instead.
Confession provides hope and possibility for the change that I desire.
Plea for Forgiveness and Support
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I ask for your forgiveness for not being more than words.
I ask for your support in holding me accountable each day to walk in the path that I know to walk for my unique journey.
I have asked God to give me the strength to forgive myself and to take this moment and the one that comes behind it to choose better.
Commitment to change
I see the pain and discomfort in the eyes and words of so many others. Despite the cries and moans of this world, it does not have to be a difficult or painful journey. I KNOW this, and I am beginning to let it settle and grow in my knower.
God did not create food to torture and tempt. Food nourishes the body and provides joy to the spirit. The key lies not in the food, but in the Creator of that food.
My Father knows what works for my body because He designed my body. I hear Him saying what I say so often to my own children, “Just do what I say because I say it.” I hear His guidance and now I have to choose my obedience.
Today I take one step closer to the freedom that He provided for me. Will you join me in this journey to Transform the Temple?
Kathryn Lang lives in North Alabama with her husband, Keith, and their three boys. Their home was severely damaged by the tornadoes on April 27th of this year and they have spent the last four months rebuilding. Kathryn speaks and writes on topics that are good, positive and uplifting. Her new book, Practical Proverbs, is available through Nook, Amazon, and other locations. You can find out more by visiting The Peculiar Life of Proverbs, her inspirational website.
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